I want to welcome Desiree Finkbeiner today to share about her book Ethos : Morning Star
A character interview with Kalen from the book who shares about his world, himself and his love.
Tell us about your world, Kalen. What is the purpose of your travel
between Earth and Ethos?
In the beginning, our first parents were place on Ethos to gain
experience, and to become the creators of our entire race, also to have dominion
over all other life on Ethos; so long as that dominion was exercised in
righteousness. For them to fulfill their mission, they were given a mushroom
to protect, which contained all the magic of Ethos. This magic was
the source of all magic, which was to be divided among all living creatures
for their benefit. But it was forbidden for any living creature to
partake of it while in the flesh, lest they live forever in their wicked
ness. The only correct way to receive a portion of its magic was through
lineage and ceremony.
As the first parents populated the world with their creations, the tempt
ation for their children to partake of the mushroom was far too enticing
for them to resist. So they hid the mushroom on Earth, to keep it safe
from their own children. As Earth became a developing world, man threate
ned the safety of the mushroom, so warriors were sent to watch over it,
to protect it from humanity. Though it was still in danger on Earth, the
implications of the mushroom being use for evil was far greater if it had
remained on Ethos. Thus, the Daghoon Warriors were called and chosen
from the purest and most obedient children of Ethos.
I was called to that order of duty as a high ranking warrior of Ethos, sworn
to protect the deep magic of Ethos, even to the giving of my life.
What brought you to have to bear this life of solitude? Was it by
As I mentioned, one must be called, but the choice to decline such a mission
is still available to the individual. But my heart was filled with
compassion and duty to serve my kindred. I had never denied a call from
the universe, so I accepted the call and swore an oath to complete my mission
with honor, no matter the cost.
How do you deal with being alone all the time?
Fortunately, I’m not entirely alone. True, that I rarely see another face
like my own, and even human friendship is limited to trading for supplies.
Relegated to vagabond, I spend my days becoming acquainted with nat
ure and the creatures of the Earth. But I’m also blessed to be accompanied
by the select drones of my Queen dragonfly. They are my trackers and
only friends, so they are dear to me indeed. Though, I once had a horse
for companionship while stationed in China during one of my missions. He
was a lovely creature.
If there was anything you could change about your life, what would it be and why?
I would change nothing. I am who I am today because of my triumphs
and mistakes. Pain refines the soul, and I cherish every moment in
life because tomorrow always brings the culmination of the past. This
life is for experience, though some experiences are bought with a
You’re a career military man, I’ve heard. How long were you in the
From the time of my coming of age. I was only a boy when I was called
to the office of daghoon warrior, and training began immediately. I
was taken from my home and placed in a military monastery, completely
immersed in training to recondition my thoughts and actions.
Everything I do is related to my duty as protector of our deepest
magic, and there were times my training was so brutal that I was sent
to the healers to recover. During my military training, I also
received spiritual training from the elders to teach me how to
harness my gifts to their full potential.
What’s the one thing you have always wanted to do but
I always wanted to find love, but my station and calling forbid it.
As a consolation, I was allowed the special opportunity to become the
companion of Lebion, my queen dragonfly. And though I’m sure it
doesn’t compare to the connection shared between husband and wife, it
is a very rare and special connection nonetheless. Lebion empowers me
with a spiritual connection to the universe that few will ever find
in mortal life.
Kalen, tell us the honest truth, when did you fall in love
with Bree? At first sight? Or did it take a while?
It wasn’t until I studied her afterglow. I saw such purity and
strength that I felt immediately connected to her. But I fought it,
buried it, and resisted the temptation to love her. Then, when I
thought I had failed her, when I turned my back for only a moment and
she fell into the hands of Ellette’s minions, I knew I couldn’t live
my live without her. Sometimes, one doesn’t know what they have until
How many girlfriends did you have before her?
As a very young boy, I remember having simple attractions…. crushes,
I believe you call them… but they were innocent and never allowed to blossom. I
was taken from the world of courtship and thrust into a military life
early on. I’d never even kissed a fae… Brianna was my first and only
love. Though, admittedly, I spent many nights dreaming of what it
would be like to have a companion to love and hold. The elders told
me it was even forbidden to dream of love, so I forced it from my
mind… until Brianna entered my world. Forcing her from my mind would
be like stopping the beating of my own heart.
And in your relationship with Bree, how are you different with
her than you are with your family and friends? Why do you think this
My relationship to my parents was very formal, and before Brianna,
the only female love I knew was that of my mother. I didn’t have many
friends, other than the dragonflies, since my mission was very
solitary. Most of my relationships have been with the elders and my
training officers. As a daghoon, I was taught that relationships were
dangerous, that they could endanger my mission, used against me. In
spite of my lack of connection to others, I was still taught to have
compassion on all forms of life. It was through the dragonflies and
the animals of Earth that I learned to respect life in even the
meekest form. But with Brianna, I have been opened to an entirely
new level of understanding about the universe and how love can
empower its recipient. My greatest source of strength however,
also seems to be my greatest weakness.
What parts of loving come easy for you? And what’s Hard?
Love, in essence, was always easy to possess, so long as I did not let it possess me. I am the master of my own heart, but I’ve learned that in loving an equal, one must give their heart to their companion.
So it was with Brianna, I’ve given my heart to her, and while it was easy to give, it was also the hardest thing I’ve ever done… especially since I’ve been indoctrinated to deny myself of such a connection for so long.
If you were granted three wishes, what would you ask for?
First, to wish for an end to the war so that all sentient beings may
find peace. Second, a wish to an alliance between the worlds of Ethos
and Earth, that we may comingle peaceably. And third, a wish for all
beings to have their agency to choose for themselves, without evil
constantly trying to force its will on others… but then again,
without opposition in life, would there even be a choice? Would there
even be an understanding of love or peace?